Another Thursday

See, today is my little mini, ever-shrinking chunk of time. They're getting bigger. I blithely assumed back when I thought I was drowning (at various times) that as they got bigger things would even out and get easier. Somehow this is not the case. Maybe this is just a bad patch, a bit of forest. I'm definitely not seeing the trees though. Just the forest. And that is the crux of lost balance.

So, realizing that today was the little chunk of time. I thought this morning that, "oh yeah," I need a quick list since this little chunk is wholly allotted to work and catching up. But then I got one off to school and came back for the other, which I normally don't do. I normally take us all at once. But I took one, and then came back because today is pajama day. And I figured that an extra 45 minutes to let the world warm up was in order before pajamas outside. (Even then, I went with the sweatpants under the pj bottoms and a turtleneck under the shirt. Call me over-protective.) So, the other off to school. And I dropped off the 10 pounds of fruit salad and other requisite foods because I was "snack mom" even though I had no idea that I was snack mom until the director mentioned the snack requirements for pajama day to me earlier this week. I protested. She protested. I protested again (the blankest look on my face). She stepped back to the calendar on the fridge. I stood, assured that she would see she was wrong. That it was not me. She was not wrong. There it was. Our family name on the fridge on the 17th of May. So, I dropped off snack. I stopped and snapped a couple dozen photos - experimenting. Hoping for the perfect shot of my "Captain Heartbreaker" (or so his PJ's proclaim). I realized that because I'd done a double out-of-the-house routine, which is NOT the routine, I'd forgotten the lunchbox. So, I'm home again but only with the realization that I have to go BACK earlier than I should to take lunch - which won't get eaten because, did I mention, it's pajama day - which means special snack and pancakes at 10. So, do we really think lunch will get eaten at 12? Not a chance. But, I will not traumatize the little one by him not having a lunchbox when it is time to sit for lunch. So, back I will go. I'm thinking I'll take it in and then go for a photo walk around the block for the 25 minutes before I'd have to pick him up. To experiment. I know some tulips caught my eye the other day. And something else I can't identify. I am really awful when it comes to know what is what in a garden. Equally bad with birds.

For the moment, I'm scanning some random things. I learned an important lesson from Danny earlier this year. I don't have to show everything I'm doing/working on. And, I don't have to show it all in order. I sometimes show "timely" things. But I don't show it all. I don't have time to scan it all. I don't feel comfortable showing it all. I show more "raw" work than I should as it is - which often leads people to think I'm either not serious or not very skilled! But I continue to show raw work. That's because I believe in the "process" and in giving you confidence in the "process."

What I'd like is a young (but not as young as mine) office assistant that I could entrust with scanning. There is so much to scan. And half the time, I scan a bunch and the software crashes after I tell it I'm "done" scanning, so nothing I scanned actually gets held and saved. Which really sucks. There are many old pages from old sketchbooks I'd like scanned, too. It's just a matter of time.

I told SunnyNole that I really should stay off email completely for the next two weeks and just "sew" - since I'm hoping to have a crop of things to sell in celebration of the one-year anniversary of the CMP. But, here I am. At my computer. Scanning. Emailing. Surfing. Posting this entry.

(Brain buzzzing... Hey - I'm curious. I know only a few of you are reading this blog these days anyway... but leave me a comment. What kind of journal are you using right now? What size is it?)

(Brain buzzing... Too many times recently I've listened to podcasters talking about how much work goes into a show (I know too well). We're all trying to find a way to make it work - and to justify the non-paid work.

Back to this entry.

Here are a few sites and things to look at:

• This "full of eggs" mosaic at Flickr by Vanessa is just unbelievable to me. It is so fabulous and so peaceful.
• Babette Blanket - mentioned by Miss Violet. It's awesome.
• Design Your Own Converse - which I heard about from Rachel's blog.
• The Chevron Scarf pool - which I also looked at based on Miss Violet constantly talking "chevron scarf." I have to admit there are some pretty ones there!
• The Bullseye Hobo, by Stitch Diva. I bought this pattern last year because I LOVE it. I totally plan/need to make one. I don't want it to look old-fashioned though. The photo doesn't. I'm hoping the one I make doesn't.
• Seeking the Muse - a blog of a new listener (well, one I just heard from). Check out the April 30 post, too.
• Swallowfield - a blog (not of a listener) of an artist whose work I just discovered. Just a peek at her banner gives you a sense of why I'm excited.
• Wonderful macro work from Poppins - be sure and look at all of them. But I'll point you to this one, which I can't get out of my head (you'll see why).
• Love this photo of yarn on the wheel. (Totally my colors.)
• Soltrcy's photos of the eggs have caught my eye. I know she's tracking it on her blog. The photos are wonderful.
• Wonderful pottery site.

Hmmmm. Seems like there was more "on my brain," but this is a good start. I need to edit/clean up my list of urls on the side again to add some of the people I've found and love.

Ohhh... hmmmm... a photo for the top. Let's see.... all right... went with one of the many rose shots this week. Enjoy. I will so hate to see them go. --- Ooh. No, I didn't. That's what I thought I was going to do, and didn't. A snippet of a fairy, instead!