Being away is always a juggle… a juggle of working and playing and trying to fit in the challenge of ICAD in between. It doesn’t sound like it should be a struggle, I know. But the days move quickly, the days are long, and the spaces in between when I work on my cards always feel like they are not quite enough to do what I want to do with the cards.
But, I am keeping up.
Have I met all my personal goals with cards 1-10? No. Have I stuck to my half-formed theme? No. Have I managed to integrate a structural theme that ties together the cards? No. (Even less so than in years past.) Have I jumped in and posted to the ICAD Circle group or the regular ICAD group to force myself to be visible? No.
So what have I done?
- I have experimented with color and some layering.
- I have combined loose sketches with bits of collage.
- I have just let things be even when they feel less than successful. (The above card is a good example.)
- I have created cards that feel “unfinished” and am letting myself live with the fact that they don’t have to be finished. Their creation is their validity for the challenge.
- I have ruined more than one black pen trying to draw on top of dried watercolor. (Someone fill me in on what would work? My Pitt pens seem to die instantly when I try to work on top of color — which is a huge problem.)
- I have left feedback on dozens of ICAD works at Facebook, and I have pondered anew the act of leaving feedback. (I think this is a very important line of thought.)
- I have drawn in public.
- I have been inspired (by others).
- I have been inspired (by the process).
- I have considered ordering some gouache.
- I have made my peace with the watercolors I brought. (Yay!)
- I have felt the limits of the 4×6 size.
- I have wished I had more time.
- I have wished I fit more easily into a community of like-minded artists.
- I have thought about tomorrow’s card, and the next one, and the one beyond.
- I have considered recording everything on index cards during this time, one card being the true ICAD, and the others giving me room to collage, play, add color, add a staple here and there, and otherwise explore. The “one card” mentality may be hindering me (a problem of my own making).
- I have fallen asleep working on my cards, multiple times.
- I have done the core card contents (e.g., the drawing) each day, but I have continued to work on a card the next day, if necessary, to finish up filling in backgrounds or stenciling.
- I have admired a beautiful lake and its shadows, found a wonderful heart in a tree trunk, marveled at the greens at a beautiful, tree-filled disc golf course, and added a splash of cobalt to a card (and done a completely unplanned drawing) in the bowling alley.
- I have played hundreds of hands of cards with my family.
I may need an I AM list… because I AM thinking during this whole process….